You Could Not Hear Me

I can not help but to wonder
After I have done all that I have done
Why you could not hear me
 I wish God would have just given you a son

It never seemed to make you wonder?
Why, when you would leave me with him
The bed I would go under
I use to be so scared listening to his footsteps
Coming towards my room, it sounded like thunder

Squeezing your neck so tight
I would do anything to prolong the process
Because I hated when he came to my room at night
Hoping you would see the fear in my eyes
When ever you went to sleep early,
I would cry
I'd roll myself in my covers
Holding on with all of my might
No matter what I did
He Always won the fight

As the parts of myself grew
I hated my body for demanding attention
I just did not know what to do
 Being "bad" in class intentionally getting detention
But only so we could get home at the same time
How he waited on me after school, I failed to mention

It wasn't until now that I finally realized
Why you never seemed to hear me
That desperate plea
But things got out of hand
And it saddens me to see you hugging that same man
That is the reason you are crying
Now you will never understand
Watching you as an angle sitting on a cloud
All because I could never tell you Out Loud