Incomplete Without You

I am in control

That is what I would tell myself

But is that temporary high

Worth the damnation of my soul

If I was to drink myself to death

All of my good deeds, to get into heaven

Could not pay the toll

Not even to myself could I admit

That my need to drink

Is no better than a “crack head”

In search for a fix

It is so easy

To identify a drug addicts’ habits

But the way we are unable to see our addictions as clearly

Is a trip

In efforts to ease some deep rooted pain

My troubles, alcohol was used to help me briefly forget

And for a short period of actually feeling sane

But for it, my salvation I will not forfeit

How patient Our Father must be

To allow me the time to wake up and see

That I can only serve one God

And that one God is He

No matter what mistakes I have made

In my life’s journey

You still see my soul fit to be saved

Thank you Lord, for being my raft

So that I wouldn’t sink

Of what others will think

I am no longer paranoid

Because now I know

Only You can fill my void