I am in control
That is what I would tell myself
But is that temporary high
Worth the damnation of my soul
If I was to drink myself to death
All of my good deeds, to get into heaven
Could not pay the toll
Not even to myself could I admit
That my need to drink
Is no better than a “crack head”
In search for a fix
It is so easy
To identify a drug addicts’ habits
But the way we are unable to see our addictions as clearly
Is a trip
In efforts to ease some deep rooted pain
My troubles, alcohol was used to help me briefly forget
And for a short period of actually feeling sane
But for it, my salvation I will not forfeit
How patient Our Father must be
To allow me the time to wake up and see
That I can only serve one God
And that one God is He
No matter what mistakes I have made
In my life’s journey
You still see my soul fit to be saved
Thank you Lord, for being my raft
So that I wouldn’t sink
Of what others will think
I am no longer paranoid
Because now I know
Only You can fill my void